substitution for green notebook

no notebook. these hot outbursts of acid. his incorruptible surface. on they fall. the best place. would be no good to burn he who i love and it makes it impossible. people wont read these meandering words like staring into river without seeing the bottom. can you see it? sandbanks time eternity riverbottoms. like that escher i saw above the torture chamber chair big gold fish plays tricks he hides from most of us. today i wanted to stop and. start. finish where my thoughts began at the first memory. i want to work and tackle this thing that hangs about me like her ghost, which i know is only uninvoked incantations and language left too long to sour. i met with a great mind today and she together with the other and I read and they said to look at the moon and see the bees and see it all transform, but then they said that death is coming and so i turned away and wondered could i change where they are going?